A Letter to my Sons on Mother’s Day

Dear Sons,

You may not know this but I didn’t become a mother on the day you were born. I became a mother the moment I found out that I was pregnant with you. From that very moment, I loved you. I didn’t even need time to fall in love with you because the love filled my heart and soul in a flash. I remember being so anxious to meet you, to see your faces and your fingers, hands, feet and toes. I felt like I knew you even before we met face-to-face and you knew me too. The years flew by; I couldn’t remember how I spent all of my time before you came into my life because I couldn’t imagine spending my time any other way, ever. I have loved every aspect of being your mother, the good, the bad and the ugly times. Never once did I wish for anything else. Never once did I want to be anything else. My entire identity was wrapped around being your mother and that was all right with me. The years continue to fly by. We are in a different place now. With miles and deep canyons between us – canyons created, from my perspective, out of anger, fear and misinformation. There are canyons nonetheless. On this day and every day, I send you love and blessings. I forgive myself for the times when I didn’t act in your highest and best. I forgive you for the times that you did not honor me with your words and your actions. I honor myself, today and everyday, as your mother. I honor you as my children. I am proud of you. I will always love you more than that.

Hugs and Kisses, Mom